When I looked back I never actually mentioned how did we first found out we were expecting Nia. Mostly because before, I was sorta held back to being over excited for I am worried if something worst happen I might breakdown down to the core punya and malu laa sebab dah excited tak tentu pasal kan. Hahaa and then throughout dah makin busy busy busy never mentioned it pon. And it has been 1 year since we last found out we were about to get our princess, but we'd always remembered the day. Always.


After married in January 2010 (gawk please! for it's almost 2 years now! I'm old) we figured out that it might be a little harder to immediately start a family. Come on, I was so young and naked there in Sabah and needed more time to swallow all stuffs surroundings. As for Hubster too, he was trying to find his route, adjusting to his comfortable working chair. 5 to 6 months down the road, I was starting to get annoyed with those questions, and we were like "yea whatever dude". Then we thought ala technically we met each other pon like 4 days je in a month and that was sorta a planning itself right? (chances tak banyak, hahaa) so we turned to bantai je la since that.


After Raya 2010, I had a surgery for cysts and had two weeks medical leave for the surgical wound to heal. After that two weeks, on that day, we went back to the hospital to meet the gynae for the follow-up check up. Everything was fine until the doctor asked me "have you had your period?" That was then I asked the doctor whether the surgery affected the period in any sort of ways because usually I exclusively tracked my period (thanks to the massive period pain of course and that period tracker so far has been quite accurate in predicting when's the next schedule) and supposedly my period of that month should be on the day I had my surgery and of course it didn't came. So I thought it might be a day late or two and after I had the surgery I thought they'd cleaned it up everything so no period that month.


The doctor immediately looked up at me and said "No it had nothing to do with your period". So she asked me to lie down and did a check up at me. I was nervous for I knew what that might meant! I lied down anyways and the doctor applied that gel and scan on me, and she said that magic line "You might be pregnant you know" That was then, I was stunned. The doctor then showed me, the placenta attaching and everything and she even showed the tiny bean. She didn't have a heartbeat yet at that time but yes, we could see the bean-size her and I was all butterfly-flop inside.

Funny thing here was, Hubster was so awed he couldn't even got up from his chair. He didn't even looked at the scan monitor for he was afraid it might be a false hope! Hahaa. He was holding back the excitement feeling so badly he had to turn away from me & the doctor. I got irritated at first for of course I'd wanted to share the moment with him but looking back, it was so cute I should've laughed hard that time. Haha!
The doctor then asked me to go do an urine test and off I go then. I still didn't want to believe the doctor but I performed the urine test anyways. Nurse came to collect the sample and I told Hubster "No, it can't be" Of course it can't be, I just had the damn surgery man! I was half-worried at that time (partly because of the surgery). Anyways, 30 minutes later the nurse came back to me and said "Congratulations ma'am, you are pregnant."


Stunned like hell, I asked the nurse three times whether she was so sure I am pregnant (at that time) and she answered "Yes ma'am", for that 3 times too. We were then ushered to the doctor's room again and the doctor congratulated me & everything. Turned out I was already 5-6 weeks pregnant at that time. I was so shocked to even reply and ask anything.


My mind was actually doing the math there. 2 weeks ago I had my surgery. That means I went for the surgery WHILE I was pregnant! Didn't or shouldn't the doctor should've checked for it first? What the fuck man! And worst, that also means I went for the surgery for nothing. Because if you read the post on endometriosis, the thing could actually got better once women got pregnant and delivered. So, be in my shoes now! That doctor, so failed lahh.


Anyhoo, being the denial me, when we got back home I still insisted us to go buy the pee stick at pharmacy to re-confirm again. Plus the nurse never showed me the double line from the urine test, she only said it directly to me, so I sorta need that slap of reality. We bough 3 sticks I think and that night after Maghrib I pee-d on it. And of course all three were showing the positive sign. That was then I could really smiled so broadly :)


Still remember that moment though, on how nervous I was, wondering whether I am capable enough to be a mother (that's one huge responsibility ok, and I wouldn't want to be the type yang reti beranak je tapi anak dia mak dia or maid or orang lain yang jaga, pffftt). Nine Eight months travelled so fast it was so captivating to catch up with Nia's development inside. Btw we've always knew what to call her so yes we already started calling her Nia even from that Day 1 we found out it's a she in there. 


To remember all this, was such mesmerizing to me. I could sit and think about it long enough that I could even shed a tear or two later at the end of the day. I never at once regretted this moment and being a mother to her, in my life. I never thought I could be blessed any better with her by my side. She's truly an angel, really, I'm not boasting my child just for the sake of it. Whenever I look at her, I'd cry and thank the Lord, for what did I do to deserve such this little angel. Well I guess, God knows. Alhamdulillah =)
Just look at how fast she'd developed. The first picture was the one that's fresh from the oven and below was the first day she's going to school nursery. Time surely do just fly these days. Slow down baby girl! Mummy needs time, to inhale :)